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Love in time of abandonment
What a profound sorrow it is to anguish, when your heart is crushed for something concealed. After all these days you mourn and cherish. After the countless nights you weep in the company of the rain. How painful it is to bear the mock and words of these people who cannot understand what is in your struggle. When only right words can bring you consolation, the silence is more felt than heard. It is always a brief approach when love in all its beauty and madness finds an ending to be.
It is not a different story, when friends approach us to help out in their relationship crisis. To be a listener or to give advice, we are drawn into the spotlight and seek an objective truth. Somehow, we try not to foster our biases especially if we are common friends to the couple. We nonchalantly see the situation and rest assured in the end the answer doesn't come from our judgment. Consequently, it is expected to find in a few days or weeks the solution achieved, either holding on or letting go. It is imperative that there is one person who felt hurt the most.
Over a cup of coffee, talking to Bryan and Che reassuring their relationship as a young couple, the effort to keep a commitment doesn't come handy. It is an everyday struggle, to settle differences and compromise limitations. Years speak of ups and downs but the ultimate reason comes back to the basic need of understanding each other.
I try to understand love, by stories and experiences. Returning to memory lane of people, places and simple things that remind of once a relationship, I am faced with the law of impermanence. Nothing stays forever. There are people we love who don't have a role in our lives. We should move on. Life is dynamic. Thou, I object being skeptical about love and I have my hopes to love in all graceful impertinence. We learn from all these. If not the conclusion may arrive with bitter goodbyes. Perhaps what lingers in our thoughts is how much we give or do, but not how much love we put in giving. Thus, we begin to be conditional.
At some point, we express through our tears the experiences we suffer. We look at love and relationship being a waste of time for it is never worth it. Understanding the basis of these words, we are suffering because we don't have control. We agonize because we can't impose our own rules. We grieve because we think we are giving more than we receive.
In these ever changing times, love questions the root of its intention. After a relationship ends, it is seldom to find the couple talking to each other or remain as friends. Only time sets in as a healer; it slowly resolves the issues and paves way to learning and acceptance.
For the end we find light in our suffering, we see the meaning behind those tears we cried in the name of love. Only then we encounter love is an act of total surrender. Those who love fears nothing, those who love conquers the world.
As what Nietzsche said, what won't kill us will only make us stronger. Love becomes a submission to a greater experience.
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