Rational Insanity
By Bryan Mari J. Argos

The voyage of rediscovery

It recently occurred to me that maybe, the reason why most of us stray along the road of life is because we haven’t really considered who we really are.  We spend our whole lives trying to find the meaning of life and what our role is here in life when we already know it from the very start.  This is why many people claim to be able to make us see the meaning of life with some lame seminar that we have to pay for.  Well, don’t pay for it, we already know what we are all meant for and where we are headed, we just forgot…

Remember when you were a little kid and you probably played with some nice ball or doll or at least you wished to play with such? Since then you already had your whole life focused right in front of you.  It’s just that in our blind pursuit for education, recognition, fame, wealth, and whatever we are dreaming of now, we lost sight of that red ball or that doll that we always had within us.  Explain this – why is the president so bent on holding on to power?  Could it be because her red ball was snatched from her before?  Why is Susan Roces so bent on wanting to grab the government from the present administration?  Could it be that she never had that red ball before?

Our entire life is not focused on the discovery of who we are, it is actually focused on rediscovering who we really used to be and are meant to be.  My God, I hope all of you listen to me now because I am giving this advice out at no expense on your part.  Look back, is it really that life of luxury that your are aiming at or that cute guy/gal you met at the bar the other night?  Or is it just the you that you already forgot what you really want?  We cannot change who we are meant to be and we need not search for who we really are.  If you are straight, you have less of a problem because you only need to fall in love with someone of your opposite sex to really know who you really are, but if you are gay or bisexual , matters get complicated because you need to ask other people if you're falling in love with someone of the same sex is something that should be happening?  But hey, snap out of it, it doesn’t really matter who or what you fall in love with, what matters is that you fell in love and that’s what you were meant for or bound to do in the first place.  You fell in love with your red ball and your doll, and it didn’t matter for you what others would think of you carrying that ball and doll around, all that really mattered was that you had it with you and you loved the feeling that it was right within your grasp.

Life is NOT discovery, now that I realized it.  It is merely trying to get back to the person that we forgot ages ago.  My heart bleeds for people who grow old and haggly who have not re-discovered themselves yet.  Scientists want to find out how to clone something, but in reality they are only materializing the kid that they were before; the kid that wanted to multiply that red ball that they had in their hands.  Look inside yourself and see how your red ball really influenced your life now.  Yes, you may have a job that does not reflect how you considered your red ball before, but does your job make you happy?  Does your job fulfill you?   I guess not…

Do not go out searching for the real meaning of life or do not go out looking for the life that you think is meant for you.  Look inside yourself and REMEMBER who you really are.  Do not get preoccupied with the opportunities and the glaring possibilities; look at the red ball or the doll, if you find it right in front of you, then you are on the right track.  We all forgot who we really are hence the fuss of discovering life and who we are.  Shame on those people who claim that they can help us discover ourselves, all they are doing is reminding us of who we truly are…

It’s bright outside and the sun is almost out in the horizon.  I wrote this piece because I felt it would make a difference.  I am in no capacity to write, considering my own struggle with my life, but I just realized that sometimes, we cannot see things the way they are meant to be seen if we are too busy with what we are doing – regardless of what we are doing at the moment.   We actually need to wait for the sun to shine, and see how the shadows have changed over the evening – the dark ones always disappear in the sunlight.  I may not be my happiest now, but at least I know that with a little bit of sunshine, even the darkest shadow disappears, if it does not, at least it changes direction, and I have a third of sunshine to bask in while the shadow moves to position.  Take a stick and chuck it on the ground, now watch how the shadow moves, it always only occupies a fraction of the imaginary circular space.  Take a bigger stick and the ‘sunshined’ area also grows bigger.  That shadow sliver is the you that you are now, always wanting to know who you are and what the world has in store for you – you have never considered the fact that you were actually always in your own shadow.  Move into the light and you have a wider you just to your taking.  Good luck!  Your red ball and your doll is right at the lighted area, step out of the shadow.

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