Unusual Channel
To decide or not
A lot of you may find this article boring you to tears or to nowhere not even near kingdom come but I hold the pen so read on.
I have always lived with the opinion that says good or bad decisions, what is important is I made that decision. And with that decision, I take responsibility for the consequence it brings and live with it. It isn't so bad when good decisions are made but when I make a bad decision, the effect remains a stigma forever. I don't mean disgracing myself or anybody (I hope so); I don't mean hurting myself or anybody but most often than not, that's the outcome of a bad decision.
When I was about to enter college several years back, I was caught between obeying my mother on the college course I have to take up and my own decision to take up what I'm really interested in. It was during those times when the economy was starting to go down the drain and getting a job after a college degree was a must! Of course, that was not my concern then. I didn't care much how corrupted the government was (until now though; corruption is even worse), hence the economy downfall, however, all I could think about was my own self, my interest, my goal, my own personal wingdings. Yeah, yeah! Selfish brat I was that! But I was young then; excited to venture into another world and earning money was the last on my list. Anyways, I had to make a decision! I decided to take up something neutral, whatever that means! I took up a course I wasn't really interested in but I know I will be able to manage to finish it. Oh well, it took me almost three years to finish a two-year course and continued to a four-year course for another one and half years. It wasn't so bad actually no complaints but I believe I could have been more effective if it was a course I really liked. However, like I said, I made that decision and I took responsibility for it.
When I became an unwed mother at 24 years old it was not my decision. It was a result of a bad decision. However, I had to live with it and continue to suffer the consequence of that bad decision. But hey, no regrets for I know someday Someone powerful up there will make it right for everybody.
When I was in my mid twenties, I made bad, really bad decisions. There were painful consequences but there were also gratifying ones. Again, no regrets there, just plain taking responsibility for things that happened.
When I finally decided to get married, it was not a popular decision with my family especially considering my husband is younger than I am but it was not their judgment that mattered to me it was my own life that mattered now. My long time dream of having a normal family was my personal concern. Popular or not, judgment or not, smirks or not and what not, I took responsibility!
Sometimes when we are faced with the situation to make a major decision, we feel we are pushed to the wall. It does not help to think or feel that way. Again, good or bad decision does not matter. What matters? A decision is made and whatever the consequence, take responsibility!
'What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us' - Oliver Wendell Holmes