Coffee Thursday
Lost words
“Whatever words we utter should be chosen with care for people will hear them and be influenced by them for good or ill.” -- Gautama Buddha
I've wanted to write about where I have been, my unusual coffee moments and the exhilarating conversations of the people I met recently but seems I am struggling to put my thoughts in a much deserved contention. I try to squeeze my mind of what I want to convey yet I keep falling short of whatever I want to say. I have been sitting in front of my computer for almost 2 hours now but the words just don't come right.
Perhaps, I am tired, I have been out and about running errands today; of job interviews, filling forms and paperworks, visiting people, updating family affairs and cooking meals. But I always think there's more than just the physical that drains me. I don't think a manual undertaking can surmount the mighty will to do something. My friends suggest that am thinking too much and now caught entangled in the web of my direction less thoughts.
The constellation of words itself seems to avoid me because my life is not as sweet nor as exciting as it used to be. Since I settled here in a foreign country, it consort me to a sudden turn around of lifestyle. Where before, my entity depicts self indulgence, travels and in constant company of peers in contrast to my present predicament where I am simply amused by the characters in the evening television and a nightly date with me, myself and I. It's not that I complain, actually I am in conciliation of where and what I am doing and this new life resides with my choice and I would not change a thing. This is just how I wanted it to be.
Talk about what some people come out with nothing is wrong but I feel empty situation. I can see this emptiness sprawls from the wanting to express something, like something to sing about a song that is lost with lyrics, something to dance but with two left feet or get that something that couldn't be reached. I am in the emptiness of expression with my own words.
I begin to realize, this situation is where I necessitate to be. A moment of opportunity to be reserved, restraint and unheard. Rather than speak, shout and utter clamorously simply because I have to. Why can't I be just attune with quietness. For in the end, our raving world and frantic society only remembers the words we don't want to hear and the silence we needed the most.
I want to take this moment to invite you to pause, to end, to be calm, to breathe, to listen... For when we stop and take time, For when we choose to keep our words, Life can indeed be a little bit better.
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