The face of poverty
Like many concerned Filipinos, I was emotionally overwhelmed and driven to tears by the suicide of Marianet Amper. I could not fathom how and why a 12-year-old girl, whose life as a conscious and thinking human being was just beginning, could think of ending it by hanging herself.
There must be hundreds, even thousands, of 12-year-old boys and girls all over the country who are similarly trapped in hopeless situations of poverty and hunger but who have not killed themselves.
That Marianet did so suggests that she was particularly vulnerable to self-destruction, either because of her unique family situation, or because of an unusual sensitivity in her personality or psychological make-up, or both. In other words, if she had sought or received the help that all children in her predicament deserved, she might have grown up into a creative person. All the more reason to mourn her loss.
That she kept a diary shows that she was carrying on an internal dialog with herself, perhaps because there was no one else in her family or in her school that she could communicate with. But even in the internal dialog in her diary, the excerpts that have been published do not show any bitterness at anyone, and do not hint at any feeling of despair and hopelessness.
It is as if she accepted her condition in life as normal and immutable, and just as matter-of-factly decided to end it.
In her diary entry dated Oct. 5, Marianet wrote: "Parang isang buwan na kaming absent. Hindi na kasi namin binibilang ang absent ko. Hindi ko namalayan na malapit na pala ang Pasko. [It seems like we have been already absent for one month. We don't count my absences any more. I cannot even feel that Christmas is near.]"
On Oct. 14, she wrote: "Hindi kami nakapagsimba dahil wala kaming pamasahe at nilagnat pa ang aking tatay, kaya naglaba na lang kami ng aking nanay. [We could not go to church because we had no transportation money and my father had a fever, so my mother and I just washed clothes.]"
There was also an undated letter meant for a TV program, Wish Ko Lang, which encourages viewers to make a wish and promises rewards for those whose wishes are aired. She wrote: "Gusto ko na makatapos ako sa pag-aaral at gustung-gusto ko na makabili ng bagong bike. [I want to finish my schooling and I really want to buy a new bicycle.]" She also expressed her wish to buy a new pair of shoes and a bag and for jobs for her mother and father, because her father was often jobless and her mother resorts to extra work doing laundry. The letter to the TV show was never sent.
On the evening of Nov. 1, Marianet, a grade 6 pupil at the Ma-a Central Elementary School asked her father for P100 for a school project that was due on Nov. 5. But her father, Isabelo, 49, an occasional construction worker, did not have the P100. The next day, he says, he was able to borrow P1,000 as advance wages from a promised construction work at a chapel under construction.
But when he got home that afternoon with the money, Marianet had already hanged herself.
It is a commonplace to blame Marianet's suicide on the local barangay officials for failing to notice the drama unfolding in Marianet's household, on the national government for failing to provide jobs for tens of millions of Filipinos, on the Catholic Church for stubbornly rejecting artificial methods of birth control (Marianet was one of seven children). So I will not play the blame game here.
What Marianet's suicide has done has been to put a human face to the statistics of poverty and hunger.
According to a Social Weather Stations survey in March 2007, an estimated 3.4 million households experienced involuntary hunger at least once in the past three months, and that overall hunger remained at the record high 19 percent reached last November 2006.
Moderate hunger—defined as involuntary hunger experienced only "once" or "a few times" in the previous three months—went up to 15.7 percent in Metro Manila, to 18 percent in Mindanao, and declined to 12.7 percent in the Visayas.
Severe hunger—defined as involuntary hunger "often" or "always"— afflicted 3.9 percent of households nationwide, 5.0 percent in Metro Manila, 4.0 percent in Luzon, 2.7 percent in Mindanao, and 4.7 percent in the Visayas (Inquirer, March 20).
According to the World Bank, 14.8 million Filipinos live on less than $1 a day, 43 million Filipinos live on less than $2 a day. And that includes Marianet's family in Ma-a, Davao City (Inquirer, April 17).
President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo has supposedly released P1 billion to make a dent on hunger "within the next six months [Inquirer, March 25]." Who does she think she is fooling?
The billions of pesos in kickbacks and illegal commissions that accompanied the broadband and the North Rail projects alone, plus the hundreds of millions of pesos distributed to lucky politicians who were invited to that breakfast meeting in Malacañang last Oct. 11, would certainly have gone a long way toward alleviating the hunger and poverty of millions of Filipinos.
But the money did not go to them. They went instead to her favorite Filipinos: the already overfed and overpaid trapos whose mercenary support she courts and needs in order to stay in power forever. Manila Standard Today